hi

moving....soon
dunno for sure yet but am taking a trip to try and get plans in motion....gonna be gone a week with the baby so thats gonna be weird....but know we cant stay here with another on the way its getting to be too much now....and they dont even know about the other one on the way.... so who knows...well gotta get some letters written...talk to you all later

sunshine

losing my mind

i am soooooo sick and cannot shake it...husband seems to have gotten better but unfortunately i have gotten worse...have a HORRIBLE sinus infection and it wont get better sigh....baby began school today ugh was killing me to see my baby going there without me...hee...been watching movies all day yay blockbuster...haha...rented the carlos mencia movies and he is FUNNNY... well i have to get going to get some sleeps cause i have to work tomorrow UGH...but work is fun so i dont mind too much....later alligator ---sunshine

hey all

UGH! cannot take the heat and thursday and friday are sposed to be WORSE then today!??!! how is that even possible????? i dont understand it haha....things are going good in the marriage house and the kids house..haha...no more trying for a baby... going back to school now ....working my butt off trying to get all these papers done but its worth it in the long run..completely changed majors and none of my credits will transfer over but oh well thats ok... the child starts school in september and we will be celebrating our 1 year anniversary (yay!!!) so september will be a big month for us....got lotts of things going on now until the end of the year...went to ohio the beginning of this month to see my birth mother that was kinda cool..., my half brother and his girlfriend just had a baby girl on the 23rd! congrats to them....shes in the ICU with an infection so hopefully she will be ok...well gotta get back to working on the paper due on monday ugh..talk to you all later

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Sigh

Wow...kinda blown away with the news today....evidently my husband may have fathered a child with another woman..i mean its strange cause i cant get mad cause it was before we got back together, but i dont know if i can handle another woman in my life with my husband....talked to a few family members that i hardly ever go to, but they are kinda in same situation that i am, and they just are kinda concerned but ultimately the decision is mine.... sigh sigh sigh....i dont know what to do....later sunshine

None

what a weird day today was... i mean weird in a good way you know? my hubby was great to me today and gave me little cuddles and kisses and was just really nice to me all day and i dunno...it was weird..haha...thats one thing i hate about myself is that im always second guessing things....its hard to live with and i suppose even harder for the people that love me....we are beginning the next phase of our daughters life and that is to interview schools...mainly the MPS system and then the school for the sign language and stuff...so well im going to go to sleep as i have to get up early in the morning...later...sunshine

Happy Easter...late...

Sigh....well was having an ok day but now am not feeling too well....got that little friend that i didnt want....sigh...i dont understand why im not getting pregnant....its been 6 months and still nothing...we even used this little ovulation prediction kit thing this month and had sex the right times and blah nothing again.....sigh...i really hope that the other baby is not his because then im going to just absolutely die....i swear....i know its a double standard but i just dont know that i could live with the fact that there is another woman with a child by him but not with me you know? well whatever im gonna go for now....later world.....