NOT MUCH TO TALK ABOUT

im still around...is anyone even reading these blogs?! leave a comment if you actually read my posts...! thanks :) 

SURGERY SCHEDULED

im so excited, surgery is scheduled for august 9th. which means i wont have to take off any more time for school. i am going to finish my mod early and then can take off the last two days which is the 9th and 10th. whoohoo! later cause i have a research paper thats now due on the 5th! ack thats only one week and i havent even started my paper!!! uhoh gotta go!

NEUROLOGIST TODAY

went to neurologist today. in a nutshell heres the appt.




1. i need to get completely OFF percoset. i am addicted to percoset which means that my body is no longer producing the 'pain relieving' chemicals that it normally would.



2. i am having "rebound headaches". meaning that because of the percoset, a normal person would have a headache, take a pain medicine, and the headache wouldnt come back. however in my case, the percoset wears off in 4-6 hours, and the headache comes back because my body is craving the medicine.



3. he attempted to give me trigger point injections in my neck and shoulder , at which he did one and then i very carefully moved away from him and didnt allow him to touch me again....at which point he was quite upset, cause he thinks im a crackhead whos addicted to percoset and doesnt want to do anything else but take the pills....which he actually said...well maybe he didnt say i was a crackhead...but he did in not so many words....



4. i was sent home with a prescription for lyrica to take daily to try and relieve the pain from my neck and shoulder, and two steroidal creams for the pain....



5. i am also scheduled for physical therapy to make my neck and shoulder muscles stronger....



6. i have been instructed to reduce the stress in my life....hahahahahahahahaha thats funny!



7. i am scheduled to go back to him in three months. at which point i should be completely weaned from the percoset....



so that was my appointment...my shoulder hurts like a *&^%^$ so i am going to go attempt to rest before my meeting at school with financial aid which i am sure will give me a headache...and then class tonight....thats about it for now



~Tina

SCHOOL STARTS AGAIN TODAY!!!

arrrrrrrrggggggghhhhhhh!!!! its going to storm tonight on my way home from school, and i dont have a car...or an umbrella....yay! :( will blog after school or tomorrow...have a good night...watch big brother for me!!

COMPARING THE SKELETON PICS :)

january 2010

july 2010   too cute! :)

THE BESSSSST DAY EVER

today was a phenomonal day! anthony and i got up as soon as we heard mackenzie (ugh 8am is too early for mama) and we got dressed (had all our clothes laid out last night) and headed out to the museum. mondays its free for milwaukee county residents with a picture id....so we got there around 845am. it was a little busy but not super-busy so yay! haha....we had a great time, we were there actually almost 3 hours, and we only did ONE floor !!! haha insane! but it was the MOST AWESOME time cause mama actually got to READ and LOOK at the exhibits while daddy was dragged around relentlessly with mackenzie !! awesome!!! heres just a sample of the pictures that i got to take....and you know there are some with mack in...not just the exhibits, although i have to say the exhibits were VERY interesting! :) thanks you to my hubby!

~Tina

CUTEST CHINCHILLA PIC EVER !!!

was going to sleep, quietly went into the bedroom, and saw the CUTEST thing!! my chinchillas angel and smudge were cuddling !! ohhh too cute !!! had to snap a picture with my camera phone before they moved so sorry for the lighting issue....   :)

SERIOUSLY SICK

im tired of being sick. i dont feel good and i want to puke, yet im taking this anti-nausea medicine (although i buy the little bit cheaper walgreens brand...it works just as well...i refridgerate it as well so that it tastes just a little bit better) so that i dont puke....and my sunburn is peeling and it itches sooooo bad and then it hurts like really bad! so i cant win! lol....chinchillas are the new love of my life...i cannot read enough information on these little babies...and today i went into their room, and sat like the books and websites told me, real quiet, and sure enough they started to come to me on their own...and then a shock to me....Angel came onto my shoulders...this was shocking cause shes been the timid one since we got her, but suddenly she seems to like me....im debating whether to go back to school next wednesday, or stay off and have my surgery on the 19th or something....idk what to do yet....will have to call the doctor and see tomorrow....goodnight....well morning whatever...its 330am...so laters all

~Tina

DARICK HAD SURGERY TODAY

he had surgery to treat Hyperparathyroidism and a vena cava filter inserted to prevent future blood clots, and a tracheotomy for the ventilator. so he came outta surgery a little after 430 so it took about 3 and half hours all together and darick is stable...i keep wanting to add this saying "hes good and resting" ...but hes in a coma so...thats kinda inapprpriate huh? ok im getting a migraine...goodnight world

~Tina

update - anthony is home officially now. his case was dismissed at the jury trial thing today...so yay...his 1st day of freedom and he spent it with me at the hosp ICU waiting for darick to get outta surgery...and i know how difficult it was to see darick all hooked up on hoses and stuff like that so it was really mondo-appreciated!!! i love my hubby....!!!

DARICK IS HAVING SURGERY TOMORROW....

my brother whos been in a medically induced coma since june 22nd, is having more surgery tomorrow. evidently there is a gland that produces a hormone that is overproducing stomach acids...so while they go into his neck to place a tracheotomy tube to avoid damaging his vocal cords from the ventilator, they are also going to surgically remove the gland. since he has developed some blood clots in his lungs, he was placed on blood thinners (because anticoagulants would have made him bleed out from the major surgery) but tonight they are stopping them so they can perform the surgery tomorrow. they are also going to place a filter to prevent a blood clot traveling to his heart during surgery as well. this should help darick heal a little better and hopefully avoid more complications. (crossing fingers) the surgery will last a few hours and hes scheduled to enter at 1pm. i will be at the hospital after 1pm as i have an appointment from 12pm to 1pm. then when i get home tomorrow night, i will update and let you all know how darick is doing!! please keep praying!!

thanks tina

BROKEN HEARTED ... AGAIN.

so took some time. cause with my brother being in a medically induced coma and then things with mack were kinda going rough and life was just fucked up. so i got some moneys and went to michigan. the one place on the planet that i swore i would NEVER go again. cause i get my heart broken every time i go there. and guess what? yep got my heart tore out, stomped on, cut into little pieces and all the pieces got stomped on too. so it went like this. dorein said that he broke up with this girl that he was seeing for a month, cause get this one "he loves me too much to risk losing me". so my dumb pathetic loser self, ate it all up. drove and sat in chicago for almost 3 hours, and finally made it to michigan. checked into the hotel on wednesday night. spent the next 3 days with dorein, in almost total bliss. then came saturday...was sposed to see the fireworks with his friends. so i suddenly had this feeling in the pit of my stomach that he had lied about breaking up with this girl and told her some lie so that she wouldnt be bothering him while i was there...and i asked to see his cell...he blew up at me. literally went kinda psychotic..then i see a message from her about ten minutes before talking about if hes back from virginia yet? so yeah my freaking gut was right. i cried and then was like im leaving. im done. but then was like forget it whatever im gonna go see the fireworks and have fun right? dorein and i can work through this...we've worked through crap before....soo yeah went to the fireworks had a great time...had an emotional breakthrough (more about that another day) and went back to doreins friends house to spend the night. so yeah my dumb a** gave in and F*d him and then the next day (sunday) i was sposed to be going back home. and i wanted to spend more time with him, so we went swimming, and spent the whole day together...really talked and had a great time...so i thought....so we had a tearfull goodbye and then kissed and i left ....he told me he had homework to catch up on so just call him when i got home...and so i stupidly did...i blasted the radio and cried the whole way home cause i thought i wanted to stay with him and he loved me and blah blah blah...he even promised me that he would be here next week to help me out a couple days after my surgery....so 5 hours later, i get home...and i call his phone...yep you guessed it...she answered his phone "said this is his girlfriend you stupid bitch slut" and hung up on me. i called back cause i was soooo shocked, and dorein answered and laughed at me...so here i sit...and i want to cry and die...and im not...like im just not. i dunno if its cause i knew this in my heart so maybe it doesnt hurt as much as i thought it would, or what. but i just....i guess i just want a man to actually mean it when he tells me that he loves me and wants to be with me....and i am so sick that i keep thinking this loser will change after the same shit story that hes been telling me the last 3 years....




remind me tomorrow to tell you about my emotional breakthrough!!! it was awesome and heartbreaking and great and wonderful all at the same time.........
 
 

<----- NEVER sit in the sun without suscreen for 3 hours reading a book !!! OMG the PAIN !!!    :(