DUH

Hmm...the job hunt...it sucks BIG time...i have been looking for a job off and on for some time now but still no luck..today applied at Target and stuff so hopefully they will call... i know they usually hire for seasonal and with christmas and all coming up thats good...anyways though...walked a loooong way today so that was good too...got some fresh air...had taken baby to park thing yesterday and she fell on the slide and bonked her head a good one....i was crying more then she was though...guess i forget sometimes that kids are more resilient then they look..ha...ok well nothing much to report today tty all later

today was a BLACK day

sigh i almost chose to end my life today....all because im seriously depressed and i couldnt find my glasses....sigh...yes life is VERY black when bipolar and depressed....have finally quit arguing and fighting with the doctors and stuff and have gone back on the depakote....so i have to take 500 mg for 3 days, 1000 mg for 3 days, 1500 mg for 3 days and then finally back on to 2000 mg for the rest of the time now.....baked cupcakes for the church bake sale tomorrow...argued with my husband...he seems to think that i am playing when i say that im bipolar... he has asked me to get him some information on bipolar so thats what im going to do...ok well church is bright and early tomorrow morning so i must hit the hay ..gnite world!

huh

life is ok so far....am married now so thats all good...im happy hes happy baby is happy...all is good...haha....my head is killing me....been off my meds for about a week and a half so have been going back on them again as of last night cause was getting kinda insane again...have laundry up the ass to do...ha...cant get motivated to do much of anything....sigh....is kinda nice outside today so my husband took the baby and went to this place on lisbon to get his playstation game cd fixed...i guess it had a scratch in it...so he took baby and went out there...i know he is mad at me cause he wanted to go paint at his mothers house and i said no cause i dont want him to...he will be there too long every day for about 2 weeks cause something about he has to sand it down and shit...no way...his mother doesnt much like me and i dont need her filling his head with crap and then when he comes home he will be all mad at me about stupid shit...nope no way...ok well i have to go get this laundry done talk to you all later