I dont wanna talk about it.....

i think that i have decided its in my best interest with everything that has happened and with baby and they way that the bureau has managed to twist my words and actions, that i have to tell my lawyer tomorrow that i want to drop the whole case. i no longer feel that the bureau is going to help me, instead i now feel that they are going to do what happened with daughter1 and they will twist things to make them look better and me to be some kind of monster. if i continue with this case things are going to get REALLY ugly and a lot worse then they already are and right now to me, its not worth losing baby over. i dont feel that i am doing nething to "endanger" her but i now know that the bureau thinks otherwise and thats not something that i am comfortable with. so with a discontented sigh and a heavy heart, i will tell my lawyer that i no longer think this case is appropriate to continue fighting. if my mother feels that she doesnt want me to see my kids that particular time , i know in my heart that there will be a time when she does want me there so i dont think i care anymore...i just cant keep fighting........im tired im literally tired of everything and everyone judging my every move and thats what this has turned into. its no longer "whats best for the kids", but 'whats the worst thing we can do to sunshine'. and i am DONE.