FINALLY BACK ONLINE

OY!!!!!!! Its been a long time since i was here. see that when i was here last i was REALLLY depressed. im now back on meds although today is only the second day of the new ones so they havent really kicked in yet, will be interesting cause im beginning a manic epsiode. have never gone on meds while manic always was depressed so will be interesting to see what happens. alot has happened since i was online last. for one my computer crashed BIG time and the guy has had it for three days now and then finally today called and said that he will give me a new one cause that one will requre major work to fix. hes a sweetie sometimes...haha...i got home and tried to reinstall sbc dsl and it wouldnt recognize my modem well then after having a total breakdown, i got smart and thought i would reinstall the ethernet card...upon opening the computer up i saw the ethernet card was not completely plugged in so i took it out and re plugged it in and voila! im now happily online. yay for me. i also have my webcam back so thats great too... what else? ah yes how could i forget? someone called social services on me and they came last wednesday and they investigated or whatever and determined there is nothing to make them concerned aboutthe baby ..that was good. i have stopped drinking! oh boy hey im still fun when im sober probably more so cause i know what the hell im doing and can walk straight! haha....yes as of august 7th 2005 (my angels birthday) i am now a sober woman....its been a tough couple days but i think im gonna make it this time...this time i know what im in for i guess and i know that i have the support that i need from family and friends....speaking of family....i am planning a trip to visit my birth mother in BLEEP on september 1st, the third time seeing her but the 1st time driving alone and also the 1st time she will see the baby. so it should be exciting. we are leaving around midnight the 1st as i think that is the best time to travel with the baby so that she will sleep (hopefully , knock on wood) and also i should be able to avoid major traffic in chicago and stuff. well thats a simple update and i have to go as she is crying again to be attended to haha....i will write more tonite or tomorrow. later all