DOCTOR TODAY

seen my doctor today since i didnt make the sobriety thing work out last time, i got a refill on my percocet on july 5th, but today july 13th, i am out of it completely. so OBVIOUSLY i have to quit. anyways lotts of things have happened in the last 9 days! on sunday the 10th, this great guy came into my life...of course its entirely too early to see if this is going to last a long time, but i can say he has shown me a completely different side of myself that i thought i lost. i dont understand the complexities of this situation yet, since i am still technically with anthony, but since we are seriously having more and more problems and issues i really dont think that we are going to make it much longer....its kinda sad but thats the facts...anyways so went to the doctor again today, he came in and sighed...uh-oh i thought, this is going to be a serious conversation today...alright deep breath...yeah doctor looked at me and asked the hard questions...are you detoxing right now? uh yeah cant you see me jumping out of my skin? hello im shaking like a damn leaf but no im great thanks for asking! (doink) anyways so then he tells me you know we had this conversation in March so why are we here again? and i sigh and start crying...for real im crying...sad! anyways i explain that i got off the meds in jan. but i have no idea how i got back on them, the librium wasnt helping in march so i got upset and gave up....anyways long story short we are going to try the librium again and HOPE that it works....its 730pm and im going on 24 hours with no percocet....heres to another 24 hours!!!

~Tina