CUTEST CHINCHILLA PIC EVER !!!

was going to sleep, quietly went into the bedroom, and saw the CUTEST thing!! my chinchillas angel and smudge were cuddling !! ohhh too cute !!! had to snap a picture with my camera phone before they moved so sorry for the lighting issue....   :)

SERIOUSLY SICK

im tired of being sick. i dont feel good and i want to puke, yet im taking this anti-nausea medicine (although i buy the little bit cheaper walgreens brand...it works just as well...i refridgerate it as well so that it tastes just a little bit better) so that i dont puke....and my sunburn is peeling and it itches sooooo bad and then it hurts like really bad! so i cant win! lol....chinchillas are the new love of my life...i cannot read enough information on these little babies...and today i went into their room, and sat like the books and websites told me, real quiet, and sure enough they started to come to me on their own...and then a shock to me....Angel came onto my shoulders...this was shocking cause shes been the timid one since we got her, but suddenly she seems to like me....im debating whether to go back to school next wednesday, or stay off and have my surgery on the 19th or something....idk what to do yet....will have to call the doctor and see tomorrow....goodnight....well morning whatever...its 330am...so laters all

~Tina

DARICK HAD SURGERY TODAY

he had surgery to treat Hyperparathyroidism and a vena cava filter inserted to prevent future blood clots, and a tracheotomy for the ventilator. so he came outta surgery a little after 430 so it took about 3 and half hours all together and darick is stable...i keep wanting to add this saying "hes good and resting" ...but hes in a coma so...thats kinda inapprpriate huh? ok im getting a migraine...goodnight world

~Tina

update - anthony is home officially now. his case was dismissed at the jury trial thing today...so yay...his 1st day of freedom and he spent it with me at the hosp ICU waiting for darick to get outta surgery...and i know how difficult it was to see darick all hooked up on hoses and stuff like that so it was really mondo-appreciated!!! i love my hubby....!!!

DARICK IS HAVING SURGERY TOMORROW....

my brother whos been in a medically induced coma since june 22nd, is having more surgery tomorrow. evidently there is a gland that produces a hormone that is overproducing stomach acids...so while they go into his neck to place a tracheotomy tube to avoid damaging his vocal cords from the ventilator, they are also going to surgically remove the gland. since he has developed some blood clots in his lungs, he was placed on blood thinners (because anticoagulants would have made him bleed out from the major surgery) but tonight they are stopping them so they can perform the surgery tomorrow. they are also going to place a filter to prevent a blood clot traveling to his heart during surgery as well. this should help darick heal a little better and hopefully avoid more complications. (crossing fingers) the surgery will last a few hours and hes scheduled to enter at 1pm. i will be at the hospital after 1pm as i have an appointment from 12pm to 1pm. then when i get home tomorrow night, i will update and let you all know how darick is doing!! please keep praying!!

thanks tina

BROKEN HEARTED ... AGAIN.

so took some time. cause with my brother being in a medically induced coma and then things with mack were kinda going rough and life was just fucked up. so i got some moneys and went to michigan. the one place on the planet that i swore i would NEVER go again. cause i get my heart broken every time i go there. and guess what? yep got my heart tore out, stomped on, cut into little pieces and all the pieces got stomped on too. so it went like this. dorein said that he broke up with this girl that he was seeing for a month, cause get this one "he loves me too much to risk losing me". so my dumb pathetic loser self, ate it all up. drove and sat in chicago for almost 3 hours, and finally made it to michigan. checked into the hotel on wednesday night. spent the next 3 days with dorein, in almost total bliss. then came saturday...was sposed to see the fireworks with his friends. so i suddenly had this feeling in the pit of my stomach that he had lied about breaking up with this girl and told her some lie so that she wouldnt be bothering him while i was there...and i asked to see his cell...he blew up at me. literally went kinda psychotic..then i see a message from her about ten minutes before talking about if hes back from virginia yet? so yeah my freaking gut was right. i cried and then was like im leaving. im done. but then was like forget it whatever im gonna go see the fireworks and have fun right? dorein and i can work through this...we've worked through crap before....soo yeah went to the fireworks had a great time...had an emotional breakthrough (more about that another day) and went back to doreins friends house to spend the night. so yeah my dumb a** gave in and F*d him and then the next day (sunday) i was sposed to be going back home. and i wanted to spend more time with him, so we went swimming, and spent the whole day together...really talked and had a great time...so i thought....so we had a tearfull goodbye and then kissed and i left ....he told me he had homework to catch up on so just call him when i got home...and so i stupidly did...i blasted the radio and cried the whole way home cause i thought i wanted to stay with him and he loved me and blah blah blah...he even promised me that he would be here next week to help me out a couple days after my surgery....so 5 hours later, i get home...and i call his phone...yep you guessed it...she answered his phone "said this is his girlfriend you stupid bitch slut" and hung up on me. i called back cause i was soooo shocked, and dorein answered and laughed at me...so here i sit...and i want to cry and die...and im not...like im just not. i dunno if its cause i knew this in my heart so maybe it doesnt hurt as much as i thought it would, or what. but i just....i guess i just want a man to actually mean it when he tells me that he loves me and wants to be with me....and i am so sick that i keep thinking this loser will change after the same shit story that hes been telling me the last 3 years....




remind me tomorrow to tell you about my emotional breakthrough!!! it was awesome and heartbreaking and great and wonderful all at the same time.........
 
 

<----- NEVER sit in the sun without suscreen for 3 hours reading a book !!! OMG the PAIN !!!    :(

I CANT BREATHE

my brother darick...hes my older brother. hes 32. im 30. anyways he got sick last week and had to have emergency surgery. and then in surgery he went into respiratory failure. and now hes "sedated" and on a ventilator. can you pray for him to pull through this ok? cause i love him and hes my big brother and i cant lose him...i just cant....~Tina

SO LIFE STABBED ME IN THE BACK AGAIN

does anyone even read these blogs? anyways so last night i had to take mackenzie to the ER cause she spiked a fever of 103 (rectally). i gave her 1 1/2 teaspoons of tylenol and laid her down. after about 5 hours, i gave her another dose of tylenol and checked her temp. it was still 102. we were in the air condtioner for all those hours, and she was only in a diaper. so about two hours after that, her temp still hadnt dropped, she was really lethargic and didnt wanna move, so i hauled out her stroller and took her to childrens ER. on the bus ride there, i got a call from isaac asking could he stay the night at his friends house and i said no you need to come home, im having a crisis with mackenzie and on the way to the hospital and you need to come home. sooo i got home after midnight and no isaac. so i called the number he called me from, and she said no he isnt here. and so i went to sleep a little worried but not too much. woke up today, went about my doctor appointments and stuff (mackenzie is back to normal thank God and a little zofran) and i get home about 4pm. still no isaac. (he had a key) so i again call the number of the girl he was last with, she wont answer. so i text her that it isnt funny anymore and she needs to tell isaac to call me. this goes on for about three hours with no response coming on her end. finally my nephew lionel comes over, texts this girl and she answers him...so he gets isaac on the phone. now isaac gets all mad and tells me that he will be home tomorrow. i say that isnt acceptable and where are you, i will come and get you. he says ill be home tomrrow, then the girl gets on the phone and says some not too nice words, and hangs up on me. so i called isaacs father and he came to get isaacs things and now i wipe my hands clean of isaac.

i quit school temporarily, until august. i need to get on my bipolar meds before worrying about it anymore. i met a new therapist today and will meet with the psychiatrist soon to get on medication. also i have to have a hysterectomy the beginning of july and i will be on bedrest for at least a week, so in speaking with administrators at school, decided that it would be best to leave school until im able to dedicate myself completely to it. thankfully the fact that i carried high honors my first two classes speaks for itself and they had no problem with that decision. ok well im going to go take a bath, some clonazepam and try to relax with a netflix movie! goodnite. tina