LIFE IS GETTING CHALLENGING

a duck in a pond is calm and carefree... but what you don't see under the water is the struggling & stressed feet.. what you see is not always what it seems.


a visit to the psychiatrist bought some rather bad news...i have run out of options for medication treatment. i am now diagnosed with bipolar rapid cycling disorder, borderline personality disorder and dissociative identity disorder. the only thing that can be treated with medications is the bipolar and i have been on literally every single medication known to doctors at this point with little to no help. we are trying one last option of lowering my lithium and adding a new medication called symbyax (a combination of prozac and zyprexa). if that doesnt work, give me some improvement in my symptoms that i can live a 'normal' life, then we are going to consider electroshock therapy. so theres that. i had to quit my job today where i was working for about a week with a friend at his job as a basically secretary doing mundane things like making phone calls, and updating lists and a special project for the Jewish holiday Purim, where my nephew and his friend and some other people all contributed to making Shalach Manos.

Shalach Manot gift bags

we worked hard that day creating over a thousand boxes containing a special candle, a bottle of wine, a special etched wine glass with the logo of the place i was working, a bag of pastries and also a small bag of spices. so thats life right now. its 630am and i havent slept in 24 hours so i guess ill try to get some rest before the energizer bunny gets up!

~Tina