SOOO WHY DIDNT I GO THROUGH WITH SURGERY?

i posted some pics...and then realized i should explain...i was all ready to go! seriously was up early, got mackenzie ready and off to grandmas house, and we were waiting for pastor kate to come get anthony and i. i was kinda excited, i had waited a long time for this day to come and i was really surprised that i wasnt more happy...in fact i was starting to get a little scared....but off we went. we got to surgery and they asked for a urine sample to check to make sure i wasnt pregnant...but i had my tubes tied, and an ultrasound not even a week ago...im not pregnany...well they still needed the urine...ok done. so we sat down in the waiting room and then before you knew it the little thing was buzzing and lighting up and we went back to my room. they gave me this huge purple paper gown. they have new gowns that hook up to a machine that can warm you, they say its cause when you are in surgery, your body temperature needs to stay up and this machine thing works better then blankets. o.k. well lemme tell you, that thing has rubber in it, almost like wearing a giant heating pad with some paper covering it, so i was quite warm in it, needless to say i was sweating. so we were in the room about 2 hours, when they came to draw blood, ask more questions and then we were rolling...well i was rolling (anthony and pastor kate were walking) about 6 miles...nah im kidding but it seemed to take forever to get to the pre-op area. then the anesthesiologist came in...more questions...then he injected lidocaine into my hand and then the IV needle...i told him that next time could he ask before poking me twice cause i would much rather have not received the lidocaine if it meant bein poked twice....and then he injected something into my IV, and hooked up an antibiotic that the dr ordered and a saline bag....and left. the nurse came in with a nice little "hat" and said something about there was an emergency so we wouldnt be going into surgery for at least another 2 hours....WHAT?!?!?! not fair....ok whatever....so i asked anthony to take a quick picture, pastor kate said what? this isnt the time to take pictures, but i explained that i was celebrating this so she said ok and took a pic with me. then idk what happened. a whole mix of things....and i determined right then and there that i was NOT having surgery today. anthony and pastor kate tried to reassure me, and the nurse came in twice, or maybe 2 seperate nurses idk....and then finally anthony said lets get the dr. anthony said i was like this when i got my tubes tied too and the dr was able to calm me down. so the dr came in the room, took one look at me with the tears in my eyes, and said whats wrong? i told her i didnt know, i only knew i didnt want this surgery. she said that it was fine with her cause i was the one who wanted it, and that shes happy i backed out instead of having a surgery i didnt really need in her opinion and then regretting it later....anthony agreed. i wasnt able to look at the pictures until a little while ago without serious anxiety....so im kinda glad that my husband, pastor and dr. were able to understand that i wasnt freaking out or having a panic attack, i seriously didnt want this surgery...and i didnt get forced into it...and im happy and thats all that matters....so now goodnight .....theres the story!!!

~Tina