A POST IN PICTURES

its a manic monday...and i havent got much to say so heres some pictures !!!

CRUMMY DAY

it was a beautiful day outside...but it was rainy and gloomy in my house... still havent heard anything from my husband and i KNOW its cause he cant contact me, but man seriously?!?!?! this is insane b.s. ~ i start school on thursday and then am off the weekend...what an odd timing to start and then be off for 3 days! haha. im quite excited though. trying to get mackenzie back on her schedule that we kinda veered off of when anthony "left". but i know when he comes home, and im going to school at night, it will be a lott easier on BOTH of them to have a schedule to keep!!! hes got the easy shift, basically all he has to do is get her dinner fed, bath time and cuddle time and then bedtime!! (why do i have this sinking feeling that mackenzie will be up when i get home around midnight?) sigh sigh sigh... shes hollering her discontentness on being in her crib for the room now... and i am trying soooo hard to not yank all my hair outta my head!!! i might just have to hit the porch... maybe since i quit drinking, i should start smoking?! haha yeah that way i can have a messed up liver AND lungs!! ~~ on a better note, i finally figured out how to get my pictures put up on my wall... i tore a box up, taped the pics to that and then nailed the cardboard to the wall ! check it out?! comment thanks

*Tina

PICTURES OF OUR "FAMILY"

Anthony Tina and Emily August 2005






Anthony Tina Emily and Mackenzie February 2008 (Emily was adopted in August 2009.)




Anthony Tina and Mackenzie February 2010

NO CONTACT

its very frustrating in my life right now. there is a no contact order in place against my husband. which means i can not talk to him, see him, or get any information from him through a third party. its VERY frustrating. its been already 6 days since i seen or spoke to him. i love him and i miss him so much. i had orientation for school today. i was quite excited. and a lott nervous. i am going to be fast tracked through the medical assisting program. basically a 2 year program is going to be completed in 9 months. (HOPEFULLY) and a lott more moneys then i wouldve had to spend on the 2 year program but thats ok too, i think and hope. haha. my teeth are hurting and i dont have any more pain meds! ugh frustrating! today was free family day at the zoo, and i guess mackenzie went with her auntie and grandmama. and i think her daddy too but noone will tell me, but they did tell me not to go and not to try to meet them there, so i assume. goodnight world!

some pictures in the next posting, august 2005 when anthony and i got together with emily. february 2008 when we thought we were still going to be a family with emily (she was adopted in August 2009.) and the most recent picture of our little family, February 2010.

AM I GOING TO BE DOING THIS ALONE?!?!?