Sigh... How confusing can life get????

i dont understand the concepts of life. i dont understand why it feels as if i have been given a second chance with the love of my life yet we both are in other relationships...is it truly only closure that i am searching for? or is it true love waiting for me? there is so much at stake for both of us yet i feel that there is nothing that should stand in the way of our happiness with one another....it is so hard to talk to him on the phone and know he is so far away...i want to be able to be in his arms and hold him while he is confused and look in his eyes cause then i can know the truth...i will try to put my feelings aside this weekend and just BE there and just experience it as if it were the last time i will ever see him....although i hope it wont be....i will definitely know in two or three weeks whether we are meant to be together...God has a plan for us and it will soon be revealed...for now i must follow my heart and it is leading me to NC for the weekend to see him and to talk to him and to just BE there with him and noone else....only then when i see him and can hold him and feel him only then will i know where my heart belongs.....

sunshine