TERMINTATION OF RIGHTS IS OVER.....SIGH

READY I GUESS

Current mood: blessed
Category: Life

well i guess today is as good a time as any to blog...as i posted earlier in the week, tuesday i signed over my rights to emily and she is now eligible to be adopted...her new mom called me the next day ( how absolutely sweet and thoughtfull of her!!! ) and made sure i was handling it ok...and also informed me that she will take some pictures after the adoption goes through and then we should meet up so she can give them to me...that was nice ....she also wanted me to know that because wisconsin is a closed adoption state, the judge said that the new parents dont have to have any contact with me even if they promised that they would, so she wanted to reassure me that she will keep her end of the bargain by contacting me with letters and pictures once a year... so i am sad and happy all at once but its done finally and it wasnt as painfull as i thought it would be..... i am happy that emily has a new life and i am sad that i failed to be the mom to her that i shouldve been...but i accept that i am not that person and that i am not capable of taking care of emily and all her needs and mackenzie and myself.... i accept that God gave me two great gifts, the first being emily and the second being the angels named andrew and natalie that are now her parents.....
-tina