STAGES OF GRIEF - ACCEPTANCE

its been a long time... its been a year and 5 months since i seen emily last. its been a long road. there are 5 stages of grief ...
1. denial and isolation
2. anger
3. bargaining
4. depression
5. acceptance

i have run the gamut of them all except number 5. i have never been able to accept that i might never hold her in my arms again. i havent been able to accept that shes in a new life and happy. tonight, i think i am. i was able to go through her pictures today and although i cried a little, it was happy tears. i love her to the ends of the ocean. i will never stop loving her, i will never stop praying that someday i will hold her in my arms again. but i can accept that might never happen. and i am able to move on. today is the 1st day of the rest of my life!

-tina

TO THE PERSON(S) THAT ROBBED MY HOUSE

to the person that robbed my house... you can keep all the crap you stole...but PLEASE , you stole a picture CD with my daughter Emilys pictures on it! maybe you dont know me, but Emily was adopted last year and i will NEVER get to have those pictures of me and her and her sister back! PLEASE return that CD !!!! NO QUESTIONS ASKED!!!!

-tina

A DAY IN MY LIFE THROUGH PICTURES...

another uneventfull day here. mackenzie got up when Pastor Kate was here around 930am, then anthony and i gave her a bath and she played. anthony missed work today cause i forgot to set the alarm last night, thank God his job is understanding. but then he had to leave a full hour early to get there and be at his school on time! oy...so mackenzie and i played until now (4pm) and i cleaned up a little, added some pics to myspace and facebook and now here and then im going to get dinner prepped and ready so when anthony gets home, we can eat! whoohoo! lol


oops totally forgot, anthony took mackenzie on his bus yesterday, they didnt go anywhere but i got some cute pics! :)

Happy Valentines Day ~ bought to you by Desitin diaper creams! lol

soooo my motto has always been "if shes been quiet for longer then 2 minutes, you have to see what shes doing- cause 9 times outta 10, its not good" ... so while watching Undercover Boss tonight, i realized (a little too late) that mackenzie had been kinda quiet for about ten minutes already...so i went to see and i HAD to get the camera...she got a tube of desitin diaper rash cream (thanks daddy ;) although hes blaming me...) and well, you just HAVE to see the pictures, cause i cant do it any justice! i laughed so hard i think i may have wet myself! LOL !!!!


p.s. the funniest thing? last september, i was readin this blog posting and thought how funny it would be if mackenzie ever got into the diaper rash cream,....its funnier then i thought! ;)
http://themcmommychronicles.blogspot.com/2009/09/first-i-screamed-then-i-grabbed-my.html

SNOW STORM IN MILWAUKEE!!

it snowed, its snowing, and theres more coming...lol....its been two years since i lost my emily...so took mackenzie out into the snow and made NEW , HAPPY memories !!! (as of 5pm today we already had 6 inches and it was up to mackenzies knees! we are expected to get at least 8 more inches before 4am tomorrow! )

the last time it snowed this badly, was the night i lost emily two years ago...sigh sigh sigh

SIGH AMERICA....

Shame on you America: the only country where we have homeless without shelter, children going to bed without eating, elderly going without needed meds, and mentally ill without treatment - yet we have a benefit for the people of Haiti on 12 TV stations....yeah....

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

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