its been a long time... its been a year and 5 months since i seen emily last. its been a long road. there are 5 stages of grief ...
1. denial and isolation
2. anger
3. bargaining
4. depression
5. acceptance
i have run the gamut of them all except number 5. i have never been able to accept that i might never hold her in my arms again. i havent been able to accept that shes in a new life and happy. tonight, i think i am. i was able to go through her pictures today and although i cried a little, it was happy tears. i love her to the ends of the ocean. i will never stop loving her, i will never stop praying that someday i will hold her in my arms again. but i can accept that might never happen. and i am able to move on. today is the 1st day of the rest of my life!
-tina